I have been accepting portraits commissions for the past 2 months in Nicaragua.Its feels very rewarding to receive the trust of different people to paint themselves or loved ones they way I see them.
But I received a very special commission last week, I have been requested to paint my own version of a painting that my grandfather did more then 34 years ago. WOW!- I was impressed of what a wonderful opportunity I have received!
I never met my grandfather, but he was a very influential artist in Nicaragua, he lived and learnt abroad and came back to Nicaragua to share his knowledge and introduce modern contemporary art to the traditional Nicaragua.
He was the director of the now named after him, Rodrigo Penalba School of Arts of Nicaragua and though a whole generation that are now masters of the...
I find my self struggling at some part of the painting.
When I start it, is PERFECT! with the first lines shades and colors is like wonderland, so many times I wished to leave the painting there, but I know I have to continue...
Suddlenly I find myself with weird colors, strokes, shapes that make my faces look like some type of monsters is living inside them....Im not making this up, is not a joke (although Im laughing now) they make me feel so insecure and of course I question my creativity and my self so hard it hearts my sweet heart.
The good thing is that I know what is the secret, (for me works to remember what I have to do and give myself love time to do it, as I obviously do not do it automatically)